My parents are actually going to try to be parents and actually try to be a family.
I can only see J.P. for a little while each week right now.
She keeps telling me how depressed she is and how I seem fine.
Well, yeah I seem fine.
I wanted space and to be with my family without her. It's nice to be able to do so for once.
She says that she doesn't have any friends, but then says all these people are asking why she's depressed.
I'm just so tired right now, though, that I can't really think of what to say.
While my parents were talking to me, my dad told me that I had gotten fat. That I had lost all that weight and then gained it back.
Yeah, I know.
He said it was cause I got lazy and quit exercising.
I almost told him it was cause I started eating. But I didn't.
When they said that I was going to be home more, all that I could think about was how I'd be free to not eat and to cut.
It's exciting.
oh, honey, what is there to process can i process it for you can i
ReplyDeleteJP is so...ugh when she says that. you cannot tell someone how 'fine' they SEEM they are. looks are deceptive.
what
he said what
can i hurt him
can i kill him
can i fucking do something because thats not okay to say
like ever
you'll be whatever you want, babe. just don't cut. i really can't handle the thought of anyone marring their perfect skin. you're beautiful. <3
-Sam Lupin