I've DECIDED.

I'm not going to slip up, not going to eat a solid thing until after school ends. I'm going to be more active. When my mother asks? I have decided that fasting and praying is the only way, right now, that I can get closer to God. Meaning, I'm going to restrict myself to only 170 calories. I've thought it all over and over and over. I seems near fool proof. Tomorrow will be Day One because I've already broken it today. What will I tell my friends? The same bull about "getting closer to God". Actually, I need a better excuse because they all know I am Christian, but they've seen how...odd and out there I am. By the way, this is mainly an experiment. School ends, for the summer, on May 25.
On other news, I have not cut once since... the last time I did. Haha, nice way to keep track, right? I'm always still nervous about going to school after opening myself up. I found my wristband! Woo! It's not odd for me to suddenly wear wristbands and fingerless gloves because before I even thought about touching a sharp objects against myself, I did.
It's almost as though I AM the recipe for suicide. Admitting all this, though, it makes it easy, almost fun. Life's gonna be tough. Stay strong, believe in what you're doing, do what you believe in. That's gonna be my motto now. YUP! Haha.