I'm gaining. I can feel it.

Today, I just feel like putting thinspo up.

I have calculated that I burn about 2386.294 calories. Just sitting there.

Breathing, functioning.

But unless I fast for most of the next twenty days, there's no way in all of the world that I am going to be 138 like I said to J.P. I wanted to be by the end of school.

And I have to eat next Tuesday.

We have testing and I don't want to feel like I'm the reason that the school seems like crap.

I mean, my school is crap, but I don't want to be the reason it shows up like that on a test.

J.P. says that if I'm not eating, I'm not exercising a bunch.

Not that she could stop me from walking around a whole bunch this weekend.

This weekend is the anime convention we're going to.

I'm excited, but not as much as I should be.

Last time I was thinner.

Last time, I weighed only 128.

Last time, I wasn't scared of how I looked.

Now, I don't even see my collar bones, the first things to present themselves when I was losing weight.

That's right, kiddies, I'm fat.

Too fat for any of my bones to appear.

Except, I have really bony arms and my shoulder blades stand out just slightly.

Probably because all we work in weightlifting in the morning is arms and shoulders.

I wore shorts today.

My legs are huge.

Except for my calves. They look itty bitty.

Especially when I flex the muscles in them.

They're really muscular apparently.

Feels great.

Alrighttt, I need to see if my mom will take me over to J.P.'s because she's having a rough day (and saidd we could go run the track together!!), and if she will I need to get ready.

And I'm going to weigh myself.

Have a lovely day/night/afternoon! :D