Life Teaches Funny Lessons

Like that you need to clamp down on emotions.
That's why I wanna be able to act like Effy.

She acts like nothing bothers her (where I'm at anyway).This post will be full of pictures, in case you can't tell. Because I have a huge collection of Thinspo that seems to be growing daily.
I didn't go for a long walk. Took a five minute walk to the soda machine, got a diet soda, took a five minute walk back.
For those of you wondering, Yes, I could go on and on about how much I wanna be like Effy.
And I will be.
Trust me.
I plan on doing it.
I plan on pushing everyone but a few people away from me.

Tomorrow, I'm dying my hair blue with pink and purple streaks.
It's going to be fun.
I'll wear it with confidence.
No matter what.
Because that's what Effy would do.
Oh! W.W.E.D.
What Would Effy Do?
Yes, I'm going to think like that.I know I'm taking this a little too far.
I just have something I want and I want it sooo much.
Seriously, you don't know how badly I just want to close everything out.
I think I'm going crazy.
This Friday, I'm probably going to a football game.
A high school football game.
With blue hair.
Anyway, I plan on introducing myself to some people.
Under the name Effy.
That way when they call me by name, I remember how I'm supposed to be acting.
It's a little weird, maybe ever crazy, but I love it.
Yes, I plan on talking to people.
People I don't know.
Isn't that weird?
I would love to talk to someone.
Just walk over to them like I own the world.
"Hey, enjoying the game?"
With a smirk on my face.
I want to leave an impression.
I want people to look at me.
Believe nothing touches me.
I want to change schools.
Go to a bigger one.
Or a smaller one.
I don't really care which.
Just one where I'm not known.
I wanna be know by something different.
I wanna be someone different.
But I can't get rid of the person I am now.
There's no new beginnings.
This is why I wanna be homeschooled.
That way, when I meet someone I wanna meet in person online, they can know me as someone different.
But I'd really like to meet them face-to-face, in school.
I just want a new school.
I just want to ask mom "Why can't we move closer to your work?"
I know why, though.
Because the rent and payments are too high.
They're too high because of the college in that town.
I just want to be free.
Free of this place.
Free of the people.
Just...Free.
I need a change.
That's why I hate going to school.
Same people.
Same faces.
Same things.
Same same same.
It's been the same for the past 15 years.