Okay, I know I said I was done with posting here, but for those of you who don't follow my new blog, I want you to know... I'm a train wreck. I'm cutting, burning, panicking because I'm trying not to starve, giving into starving, I'm all over the dang place. Good thing? I have supportive friends and am going back to being super goth, like I was in the fifth grade. I was kinda happy then. I'm 129, BMI of 20.8, 46th percentile. These thoughts make me want to be 110, BMI 17.8, 24th percentile. Part of me just wants to be free.
Now days, I don't know what to listen to anymore. I don't want to eat, know I have to, want to be hope for those who need it, don't think I can be.
It's like, I'm starting to realize...eating normal, this skirt will never fit loosely. I want it to by time school starts. I wanna look cute.
I don't know anymore what to do.
I'm really sorry that you're going through a rough time and feeling like a trainwreck, I can't imagine how difficult this must be. But I'm happy that you have supportive friends who will do everything they can to help you. I hope that you are okay and that you find your way. We're always here for you.
ReplyDeleteIt's good you've got supportive friends, and I'm sorry things aren't quite working out with the other blog, but you were doing really well on it before this slip up, so remember that :)
ReplyDeleteYou don't have to recover all at once, you could alternate between the two blogs for a time? Just an idea if that helped at all?
Like americaneagle said, we are always here for you.
Lottie x